I stood on the sidelines

Waiting for the chance

To tell you I need I need a hill to rule over

Don't be offended

I only told the truth

Don't critizes me

My scars are much too deep

I can't get passed the shadows

They're following behind you

Like history repeating

Your eyes are so misleading

The accusations and allegations

Of things that did not come to pass

So don't try to break the silence

Don't push me to the side

Remain the one beside me

Open your eyes to see

Don't try to break the silence

It's like history repeating

When the silences

Becomes way too loud

I'll come back to recognize your faults

When the silences reaches up to God

Tells the world how much you have lost

I know there's not much to say

It's easier to toss the words aside

There's point to be involved

It's a hell of a ride

I'm blind and senseless

The shadows tend to surround me

The ribbons and the laces

Tied and bound to my feet

When will you hit zero again?

Like a sedative

Blurring patience with disbelief

And a dull moment

When the silences

Becomes way too loud

I'll come back to recognize your faults

When the silences reaches up to God

Tells the world how much you have lost

Even when the wound is gone there's still so much pain Even when the memories of tragedies are lost They just barely escape You put it all on display You put it all on the plate And now they want to see Just what you are I won't find you now Comfort in a strange place Struggle but still dragged down Underneath the waves break You tell yourself lies and lies If it makes it easier You feel that the truth can sometimes be So much scarier I won't find you now Comfort in a strange place Struggle but still dragged down Underneath the waves break As you twist every beautiful flower you see You are taken back by the sound as their head drops to the floor If seduces self indulgent ego to carve its name in wood and call it art I won't find you now Comfort in a strange place Struggle but still dragged down Underneath the waves break

They're on the papers They come back to haunt me A little liar That sold their story Contemplates Eye for an eye So wrong Caught the liar in a blink of an eye They come here alone Like coloured insects Lacking tolerance Collecting honey Tthen marching on and on Stomach so tight Waken eyes On the blurry side With waken eyes Waken eyes

What is it that you're thinking? Is it how you're going to explode into this world And be the envy of, well, you know Heaven is Sinking underground Heaven is sinking under You're so simple You're so sad It's more of an afterthought It's like a heartbeat Except there's no life attached to it You take the honest Then you deny it You break the bones with Your silent mind

Hey you, you never seen Cause it fades so fast You left with A bitter taste I'm here with your shadows on the wall And it still lingers Stack a grain to a grain Until it falls down again Still the hunger lies inside In your Garden a field so wide Wash it all down the lake Even the flowers wear disguise Instincts governs you It shuts all my five senses Searching, running blind Did you find what your looking for Or was it in front of you

One night at her bedside, she will lie awake With thoughts through her head and plans for her fate. To reach through her madness would paint her face white And deliver her pain with punishing might. It swallows her whole, as if some sort of beast With nothing to hide, her soul is its feast. No margin for error, no second to waste The dream she is placed in reminds her of hate. This body she's trapped in can bear no escape Like horrors and demons, there's a mask on her face. While tragic and sadness await by her side The effortless sleep will be her ultimate ride. The stage is now set, she is ready to go And only seconds remain until the start of her show. The wait is so lonesome, so desperately dry That her eyes will go red and will soon start to cry. This waiting impatience can drive her to madness The only thing keeping her is unbroken sadness. So with one mournful cry, she cries out for him But nothing is heard and things become dim. Her eyes are now closing, now ready for sleep Her prayers have been answered, she'll no longer weep.

Leave me dreaming while the stars descend and fade Castoff wishes fill the void between the grade Heaven’s an open hand Closed by a fiery touch Fear of the wishful mind Twists in the stars maligned Burn like a symphony Caught in comet’s wind Still-life against the sky; Razing against the skin Bye, my dream, the morning has come…

I was taught the gospel by an engineer who designed me by example singing hymns of evolution in which children weigh their measure on scales that held their fathers and spend every worthy moment calling out their numbers to the butcher selling them by the pound I tipped the scale, but I was sold to feed the growing hunger in a marketplace for the ones too tough to eat but fit to drink until they were floating I became a swimmer while drowning in the womb grew gills to drink the oxygen like wine Praise the restless stirring in my soul Praise the endless turning of my eyes Praise the darkness coveting the light Praise the revelation

I blocked the air as it escaped The frozen lips of my mistakes (it's a crime) My fingers burst to shards of ice That formed the words of sacrifice (it's a crime)

All things in life can be broken down till what you see is: Saint vs. Sinner. With every look you choose to play the role that you will portray Take my eyes, fraught with sight (you’re not trying to see the light) (and I wish I could be on your side…) How I play the villain to the audience of my despair: Which dream was this: I woke up against your lips and fell asleep against a wish to never sleep again? It seems the stream that carries me has twists that I could not forsee despite my bouts of clarity… (She’s swimming to the stage…)

Something keeps me hesitating Although I’ve been waiting, waiting Waiting for the open door To show me that it leads to something more Untouched party invitations Smoke and mirror decorations Is there cause for celebrating As I stand here waiting, waiting? All your dreams are products of smoke machines (Unclear) All the doors you walk through you’ve closed before (No hesitating now) Destiny: Nothing more than an open door (Walk through) Move your feet, your steps make a new beat And you are dancing now… Time slips by The mirror’s shine will fade But you will grow to be the shine inside The smoke can’t hide the spirit wanting you to set it free Once I was a fading child I’d disappear more every year Till I could see through my skin But lost sight of where I begin

Lately there’s a new sensation growing old in the belly of a beast unfed, a hunger bred to hunt for a new way through the needing Fall away (down beneath the blood and bones) Don’t fall away from this plan, too (keep walking through) Fall away, don’t fall away from this plan, too Follow all your prey till the ground divides When you’re falling down to the base, down to the base you say, “Oh where do we go from here?”

In the madness I am caught between what to be and what to mean "All the words lost," she says, "and I am tied and tortured. All the words left," she says, "hard, jaded and absurd, And when I say I love you, it’s not enough to make things clear, And when I say I love you, it’s not enough to make things clear. Walk with me through the debris of a dying tyranny What’s left to hold on?" In every story’s end We turn to start again

Wake to this: Choking thoughts have blossomed flames Wake to this: A paper city falling, charred and grey I can’t keep staring at the sky I can’t keep staring at the sky Close my eyes, but I see the spark from inside It’s the way I dream you Between the hills on fire and wish for rain It’s the way I dream you Smoke signals rise Is there any help in sight? I’ll watch for signs That the fire’s growing dim And new life can begin…

Typical of a masquerade Integral of the unsound braid Sold on its strength within As its unraveling And you cling as it divides (Better look up before you hit the floor Had a hold once but you needed more) What did you want it to be? Nothing is guaranteed Made the fall once but it’s not for me now Made the fall once but it’s not for me now Hand over hand Thought that I had a solid hold But I was not the one who was in control Hand over hand Though the rope breaks I cannot be stopped Strand by strand till I reach the top Hand over hand

(going and going away) two steps back to the other side where I run where I try to hide what I've seen in spite (what I didn't know) two steps back to another time when the mind was a less divine disease to fight (what I didn't know) two steps back to a master plan sketched on the back of an outstretched hand fingers fan a failed appeal: "do not touch the things you cannot feel..." two steps back to a battle cry no mercy for the weak who choose to die two steps back to a future bright two steps forward into a better light I'm washing off this skin don't let the words sink in I'm washing off this skin don't let the words sink in do you believe?

Some things don't seem too good to be true, they just are. I take it all for granted and then you take my breath away (maybe she asked for it) (you left it all behind) Don't you want this? (Suffering) I should be the way you want me to be But I just...